I think this time in our relationship is as hard, if not harder on me, than on you.  Your dad says Linda told him your appointment with Linda went well but that "there is a lot going on, and it will be awhile" until we meet together with her.  Last weekend was the first time in our relationship I couldn't touch your heart.  I couldn't share mine with you and have you crumble after returning right to yours.  I guess you are growing up and growing away from me, maybe as you should.  I've always believed you didn't keep secrets from me, that you felt safe and comfortable enough to tell me anything.   I don't know quite how to just wait until we get there; until you get there...so I think I'll just go take a hot bath.   I love you.